I used a similar title once before (right here), in a different universe, where I was in a different place. I was in a place of peace, of happiness, where I was younger (even though it was only three years ago), and everything seemed like it would go on forever. All the while knowing that the life I’m living can’t go on forever.
And I’m not talking about a life full of partying, going crazy, and living in the fast lane, or whatever these cheeseball terms are. I’m talking about spending time with the ones you care the most about, whether it’s over Christmas or any time of year. We’re grateful for the moments and the time we have, feeling that time may stand still, we could do this all day, we want to do this all day, and we want to be where we are.
I’ve had so many moments like that in the past year, with the awareness that nothing lasts forever. The fact that I’m expressing my thoughts about this is that I still haven’t come to terms, or made peace with this. If I’m being vague, well that’s the point. But the fact that I’m aware at least shows that I’m at least trying to come to terms with things in my life.
The peaceful, the relaxing, and the calming parts of the holidays will always be there, but for me, it’ll take on a whole new trajectory. I feel like I’ve outgrown a few things that I maybe should’ve done a while ago but such is life. And while I outgrow certain aspects, I embrace the simple, the companionship, the love, the community, from friendship and family that has always been, and will always be there. At least I hope so.
This leads me to another community. The Baltimore Coffee and Tea Company has been so good to this blog for the duration, (previous posts can be found here), and a much needed visit, which was again unplanned, to their Timonium location, brought upon me some much needed Christmas Cheer.
And that Christmas Cheer lead into some Christmas Spirit, aha! The Eastern Shore Christmas Mint Tea from the Eastern Shore Tea Company came at the right time, in a time where my this holiday season has been a bit off for me, and has seen so many rapid fire changes around me, that I wasn’t sure I would be able to cope with.
But we learn to adapt. Whether it’s because we have no choice, fight or flight, or we just learn through experience, somehow life goes on. And it’s going on my friends.
With all the commotion of the holidays, the running around, the shopping, the parties, the eating, the drinking, and all the other frenzy that comes with it; there’s these reminders in life to slow down. I for one wish I didn’t need reminders, and should always live in as harmonious and as peaceful of a place as possible. It’s more than doable, and while external situations can’t be helped, there’s still more than enough room for peace, that should be embraced and never taken for granted.
So what’s what I did here. It was a busy day, but after I purchased my tea, I found a seat, and just was happy with where I was, nothing more, nothing less. Actually more yes. More happiness and peace is good. I brought a few chocolates, more for display than anything else, and got some photos with my new friends.
But before I continue to lose sight of the point of this blog, the tea is tremendous. But then again, in the place I was in, the mood I was in, and with this setting, just about any tea would be making me feel like a new man. But this China Black Tea, with hibiscus and peppermint made me feel so warm inside, was so kind to my stomach, kind to me, but most importantly was kind to my soul and spirit. For this window of time, I felt the joy and peace of the season, and it’s something we all yearn for and it’s not that we deserve it, but we deserve to be good to ourselves, to be good to our family, our friends, our neighbors, our community, and this universe.
After I stopped taking a few pictures, I just sat there, no phones, no distractions (well I maybe did take a picture of their beautiful Christmas tree), and a whole lot of just being, This is not necessarily an art form, but it does take precision and practice.
What I got from this day is while things may be tumultuous at times, confusing at times, and trying at times, that I’m still here, I’m still breathing, and I have value to give to myself, my surroundings, and this great big world of ours.
Even if this wasn’t the most amazing and beautiful of Christmases for me, it was still enjoyable at many points. And maybe down the line I’ll look back at 2017 and realize this was more of a pivotal, transitional, or maybe life altering year then I even realize.
I hope you guys had a Merry Christmas.